I want to blog regularly and life has been crazy lately. I keep thinking I have to have perfect conditions to sit down and share with you. (I am having trouble typing right now because my cat keeps nudging me for attention!-sorry I get easily sidetracked, my friend Linda says we have Bright Shiny Object Syndrome-we get easily distracted!). The needing perfect conditions got me thinking about how I am always seeking this magical balance. I am realizing it doesn’t really exist for me but that is ok, I need to just roll with it and be happy! Which I usually am happy, just frustrated because my To Do list is always so long.
Is it just me or do you all have problems saying no and then getting overwhelmed with commitments? This year is crazy for me-I am making big exciting changes with Happy First, I am the chairman of our local Charity Ball, I am a runner and Mentor with Team in Training, and I am going to be on our PTA board this upcoming school year. It is all stuff I want to do! And then I didn’t plan on my mom being in the hospital/rehab/or ICU since January 29 and she lives 4 hours away.
I am proud of myself-I actually said NO yesterday (and it was a little hard, because I don’t like to be left out). I was asked to do another position at school that I enjoy. But there is always next year. I think if we spread ourselves too thin, we can’t do anything well and our family doesn’t usually like our grumpiness then!
Then I am feeling totally guilty for having any stress or frustration at all because I have some friends that are going through serious health problems (or their child is) or marriage problems so then I just feel grateful that I can be in the position to have too many fun things to do.
Ok, this is so weird-I have this great book that I read every day and this is an excerpt of what I read today, after I already thought of writing about this topic. “There’s no doubt that we will continue to “run”at a certain pace, for life is very busy for most people. To be able to run through life guided by wisdom means knowing your own best pace and allowing for only the amount of activity that can be done realistically and well.” (ooh, good thing I said NO yesterday!)
So in conclusion, for me, there is no perfect balance, just a happy attitude and gratefulness!
What are your thoughts? Would love to hear!